Happy Birthday to Me – Day 358

May 27, 2011 No Comments


365 Days to a Balanced Life Journey – Day 358



“Youth is not a time of life – it is a state of mind. It is a temper of the will; a quality of the imagination; a vigor of the emotions; it is a freshness of the deep springs of life. Youth means a temperamental predominance of courage over timidity, of the appetite for adventure over a life of ease… Nobody grows old by merely living a number of years; people grow old by deserting their ideals.” – Samuel Ullman 1840-1924, Businessman and Poet

It was my birthday  the other day and we all know that along with celebrating comes some moments of reflection.  I had many people contact me out of the blue to send me their birthday wishes.   I was starting to feel very touched and special that so many people remembered my birthday but then I realized that Facebook is a wonderful tool. :)   Maybe I will finally be able to remember my sister in law Ceri’s birthday after 25 years!!  Although in fairness to me she does have two birthdays so I was never sure which day to celebrate.   I do however know the month!


I have to admit I am struggling with the idea of being 55 I really don’t feel 55and at some points in my life I didn’t even think I would make it to 55 (Craps players will know this as Ten the Hard Way and at times this week I felt that appropriate).

Most days I actually feel much younger and am always surprised when I look in the mirror.  I am now looking at older women in the gym thinking OMG do I look like that?  I was out walking with a group of women the other day thinking why am I walking with all these older women before I realized I am one. (Sorry ladies)

I have always considered myself young at heart and willing to try new things.  When I took up poker 5 years ago I was surrounded by young people and have enjoyed that aspect of poker.  I am usually the oldest one at the table and surprisingly do not feel uncomfortable.  I have a great time with these kids and sometimes have to remind myself that most of them are young enough to be my children.  (Although I do feel my age on the rare occasion when I pull an all-nighter at the card table).  These are the times when I wish I was 30 years younger when the poker phenomena hit!

So when will I have to stop doing “young” activities?  I would like to say the answer is never but I don’t want to end up looking foolish either.  Just like I had to finally say good bye to short skirts I must eventually do the same for other things.  Clearly I can’t wait until I feel too old because I don’t think I ever will.  I do hope someone will tell me that it is “time” if I do not have the sense to know myself but until then I guess I will just keep doing what I’m doing and trying new things until I can no longer do them (or remember why I am doing them).  :)

I did however get a little rattled this morning when I was out for breakfast with my daughter Kali when I discovered that I could now order off the senior’s menu.  Even though I would save money I could not bring myself to do!!!  I think I will have to wait until I’m broke or 65 to do that one.  Someone should tell Denny’s that 55 is the new 45!!!


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