I Want to be Alone – Day 98

September 7, 2010 1 Comment


365 Days to a Balanced Life Journey – Day 98


Quote of the Day

“Solitude is painful when one is young, but delightful when one is more mature.” – Albert Einstein

I am preparing for a 6 week holiday/retreat/sabbatical to Australia this fall.  It will be an adventure as I am going solo.  As this will be the longest I have been away from family in 22 years,  I am both excited and nervous.  Excited because I will be free to spend my days as I wish and with whom I wish (some restrictions apply:) ).  I will not have anyone bitching at me and nobody for me to nag (that falls under both categories; excited and nervous).  Nothing will be my fault and I cannot find fault in them.  My husband Jack is also nervous because whenever I’m away he is plagued with the feeling that he is doing something wrong, he just doesn’t know what it is.  He probably is.

On October 5th I am flying my daughter Kali to New Zealand for a seven week student exchange and then popping over to Melbourne to start my self -imposed exile.  I have big plans for these weeks and some of them even include blogging.  I intend to come back healthier, calmer and a committed meditater (again with the meditation!!!).  I will be spending my days writing, exercising, eating well, meditating and sightseeing (I may even squeeze in a little Australian Poker).  I am also going to explore some of the unique health products that Australia has to offer. 

I plan to keep a journal of the trip that will record my experiences and feelings of well being ( or not).  I think this time away is important because I tend to give so much of myself away on a daily basis.  This often leads to feelings of frustration and stress. I am sure we all have days when we feel like everyone in our family is put on this earth to suck the life out of us.  I want to know what it feels like to just be responsible for myself for six    whole    weeks.  I do know that I am very privileged to have this opportunity so I do not want to squander it. 

Both my husband and I think that I may never have a chance like this again.  He is a very supportive spouse and I appreciate very much that he is “allowing” me to do this (I know he is secretly hoping I will change my mind).  I fully understand that most husbands would have a tough time letting their wife go off to find herself in the wilds of Australia.  Without the trust and respect we have for each other and our family this would not be possible.

He also will be saddled with managing the renovations we are having done on the house while I’m gone.  This is why a lot of my friends and family refer to him as “Poor Jack” from time to time.  Hopefully I will reward him with a better version of me upon my return.

While preparing for this trip I am worried about restricting myself to two small suitcases and a knapsack.  I will not have anyone to help me cart the luggage and besides I really would for once like to experience the freedom of easily moving my own luggage from place to place.  I am reminded of the calamities of family vacations past where we did not follow the “only take what you need rule”.  I have posted an article in my featured articles section about our hysterical trip to Europe a few years ago where luggage was the central theme of the vacation.  I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed reliving it.  

G’day mate!  Take a look at this site of Australian slang - who knew they had so many?  I have printed it off so I won’t make a Blue.




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